I wish that I could erase this pain
I wish I had listened to my friends when they told me to abstain
Thinking back and I don’t know why I even wanted to remain
I wish that I could forget all the nights I cried to sleep
I wish I could forget the many times you dug that knife into my heart so deep
To the point where I felt asphyxiated and I couldn’t breathe. In between cries gasping for air
Where’d I go wrong? What did I do? Drowned in confusion and lost in despair
Blaming myself time and time again. Trying to make up excuses
Played your game for a long time that began to believe I wasn’t worthy and my friends would tell me I’d never be the one he chooses
Because they saw right through you but I was blinded by love. I let myself be the girl he reduces and just uses.
I wish I could forget all you made me feel. The pain and suffering that made me throw up my meals.
I wish I could say that I no longer love you.
But I still do. And you’ll never see my worth but now I do.
So next time they ask you about me I’ll be the girl you once knew